This painting was an 18-month-long process that took on many different colours and sizes after the flicker of inspiration first gripped me. Had I known it would need so much time and uncertainty to become fully alive, I probably would have asked myself different questions along the way.
However, “not knowing” caused me to learn more about these things:
- I don’t have to know what it is going to look like before I start.
- The first time likely isn’t going to be the best time.
- Unfinished is beautiful too.
- Mistakes are opportunities to be creative.
I have felt so thankful for those who have displayed copious amounts of patience with my process (longest painting EVER!) In this case, time was a necessary key to inspiration. If I were brave, I would show you all the “FAILed” prior attempts, but I hesitate simply because I cannot yet describe WHY they didn’t meet the expression I was looking for. It is the indescribable knowing that it’s not right that draws me back to the drawing board time and again, not with discouragement (as some would suppose), but with time-taught determination.
“Because the Sovereign LORD helps me, I will not be disgraced. Therefore, I have set my face like a stone, determined to do his will. And I know that I will not be put to shame.”